36 weeks! my original goal!

36 + 0 = i went to church! i know it's not a huge outting, but i haven't been to church since being put on bedrest. i didn't go to our parrish in miami lakes, we instead went to the one literally 2 minutes away. my mom's parrish. it was nice to go and actually participate w/ the community. of course, everyone had something to say b/c i'm like this "novelty" since i'm "so big / huge". but really i loved when the priest acknowledged us at 'peace time' and then after mass he prayed for us and gave us and the babies a blessing. :) i stayed at my mom's house afterwards while HunHun went to a carshow. in the evening we stopped by his aunt's house for dinner and spent time w/ his siblings, aunts and family. it was nice to hang out w/ them again after being secluded for so long.

36 + 1 = SILmaria came by to visit midday. she brought me a regular cup of coffee from starbux and a sandwhich for lunch. she came w/ her little yummy baby girl that is abt a month old now. we chatted mostly of babies and MIL, haha.

36 + 2 = sat w/ my laptop and ipod most of the day and updated a playlist for d-day. or rather, the time i'll be spending at the hospital. i know it's not conventional, but i put some of the songs that i'm "feeling" right now. i added some system of a down, shout!, marching band music, a couple of upbeat songs and the songs that make me think of babies and this time that i've waited for so long.. iris by goo goo dolls and sweet child o' mind by sheryl crow. i also added joe cocker's you are so beautiful, which is our wedding song. we'll see if i even get to it once i'm there!

so i now understand!!!

why girls get manis and pedis on a routine basis! HunHun treated me and took me to get my nails and feeties done on friday when he woke up, er.. i.. woke up from my nap. :)

what a nice guy! haha.

i had never gotten a pedi at a salon before. i'm too ticklish for that and it was proven when i laughed when they'd scrub the bottom of my feet. but the rest of the treatment was divine! well, except for the place being a poorly ventilated little shop. so at first i was sucking in fumes of acetone and acrylic, but then thankfully they opened the door. i just may go back and probably by then they would've expanded to include spa treatments, like they're planning w/ the empty space next to them.

i got a french on my toes since it was my first time and that's what most girls get, i figured i'd give it go and have my feet look decent for the duration and delivery of the boys. (and HunHun has confessed to liking the way it looks, he thinks it makes feet not look "all beat up" lmao) i don't even like french manicures. i think they're cheesy, b/c i feel so many girls down here in south florida get them all the time. and i think they're pretentious. so i don't go for that. even though i got one for my wedding and i've done it other times, but those are "occassions" not just to look like the other girls.

so when she asked me to do another to match my mani, i was like "uhm, no, i never match perfectly anyway" and i got this really nice dark purple.

so if i ever have the time to myself after i have babies to look after, i think i might spend it getting a mani / pedi again. if i don't, at least this was a nice treat. :)

35 weeks - i can't freakin' believe it!!

35 + 0 = made it another week! did some laundry of ours and for the babies, from the stuff V brought over yesterday. had BIL-M and SIL-Y come over w/ the kids.. all of them sick! had HunHun lysol the entire house, but too late, he was feeling a sore throat by bedtime. makes me mad! ctx/backache/pressure like friday, but goes away after an extra dose of nifedipine as per on-call dr.

35 + 1 = finished the laundry and attempted to organize HunHun's side of the closet. we'll see how long that lasts... lol. poor HunHun is definitely sick. trying to fight it w/ echinacea tea and day/nyquil. mom came over for a lil visit since she was off for MLK day. she asked me to write down the names of the babies (that she's known for almost 3 months now..) b/c she doesn't "get them" or we should come up w/ alternative name for her to call them! wtf?

35 + 2 = it's inauguration day!! and being on bedrest allows me to watch it! : D

35 + 3 = had an OBG appt today. Dr.S-OBG put me in the books for an induction / section! yay!!! i had to pratically make it seem like "i just can't do it anymore" b/c i think he would've just let me keep going indefinitely. he scheduled it for exactly what he said he would do. after 37w. so i'm scheduled for February 5th @ 37w 4d if i don't go into labor and deliver before then. woohoo! my cervix unfortunately just is stubborn now that it's been on bedrest. it doesn't care we have business to take care of. it's stayed put at 1.5 cm dilated. blah. so i doubt i'll go on my own before then and i'll probably just deliver on the date set. either way, we have a birth day set to meet my babyboos!

35 + 5 = got confirmation w/ Dr.R-Peri today that the b-day we have set is perfect! woohoo! the boys are looking good too. HunHun ended up just calling off the rest of the day to hang out w/ me, but it was more like he needed to rest since his sore throat / cold hasn't let him sleep in days.. i think it helped him to get better. the boys are weighing...
hOops: 5 lbs 10 oz
yOyo: 5 lbs 9 oz
:)

35 + 6 = wanted to clean up the house w/ HunHun since now we only have 2 weekends left. but unfortunately since i can't do it alone, i didn't do anything when HunHun decided to go do a "job" that lasted pratically all day. i even had a late lunch when he was able to finally come home. meh! i'll get him tmw. oh and hOops seems to be turning or re-adjusting. my belly is low and i think he's sideways now. hmm...

a couple of things about this weekend..

FALSE ALARMS - so let's start w/ all my false alarms and trips to the L&D triage. it's been a couple of days since my last visit, so it's not as fresh in my head and heart anymore. but nonetheless, i still feel a certain way.

tired. exhausted. embarrassed. mentally unbalanced.

hmm.. i wonder if those descriptions make it sound worse than what it is. but in reality, i do feel it when i hear i'll be sent home yet again. i know that it's best for hOops & yOyo to stay in as long as possible. i've done what i can to try and prevent or minimize NICU time and i know if they come too soon it defeats all of that. these emotions are all selfish and about me and how i feel about feeling contractions and pressure and yet not progressing. i know it's common for a multiples pregnancy to have PTL or contractions early b/c of the weight and pressure my body is feeling. but after time and time of being sent home, you sort of start feeling like "will this ever really happen? does my body know what to do?"

i think most of it is just that i'm feeling tired and have been feeling the stress my body is feeling. the physical part of this, now... in the homestretch is most likely what has me like this. i know i'll make it, we'll get through this. we have to! lol

STRETCHMARKS - they're coming in full force now. the first ones i saw were a couple of weeks ago. i'd say maybe early december :???: they were on my hips and definitely there. dark pink. maybe 3 or 4 on each side. the left side was more noticeable. then a cpl of weeks ago, i noticed i had some sideways ones over my belly button. these were light and skinny and i thought, 'how weird, they're sideways..' well, since then, the hip ones have gotten "stronger" and bigger and the ones over my belly button are stretching from side to side of my belly. i knew, i wouldn't escape this pg w/o getting them. i knew i'd be growing bigger than a singleton. but seeing them is a reality check of how my body will be or might be after birth for a very long time. this won't be easy weight and leftover skin to get rid of, i think. but they're my warwounds of my jouney through this pg that i wanted so much. of these babies i love so much.

SHOPPING FOR GIRLS - and to end this post on a light note.. i thought i'd share that i may be losing my knack for shopping.. for girls.. like me! we went to BRU to pick up a quick gift for M for her babygirl. i decided to get her bathstuff, so i picked out this super cute hoody bathrobe w/ matching terry cloth booties. so i decided to get some toys to add and i started picking all the "boy color" ones. HunHun had to point out what i was picking up instead of the 'butterflies and flowers' next to it.. hahha. my boys have changed me. :) yay team blue!

4th L&D trip

It's 652pm and I'm heading to L&D for the 4rh time. Have been timing ctx since 345p and in the last hour they were 3 mins apart, 1 minute long.

Reminds that I just read in "belly laughs" the 4-1-1 rule.
4 ctx
1 minute long
In 1 hour...

Will be back w/ an update.

Still here, but I think im gonna be sent home. No progress on dilation and the nurse says my cervix feels longer?!?? Hmm... I was given a shot of terbulatine and I'm waiting on results from my fFN...

--susy
Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

1046p - discharged after 2 shots of terb, a huge plastic tub of drinking water and the shakes from the terb. I'm so tired of these false alarms, and I hate the little jokes that come along w/ it. Ugh!!!!!!!!!!

**at least hOops & yOyo are ok, not stressing like their momma.**

my hair

i wonder if i should just risk taking a picture of myself first thing in the morning, so you see how my hair is all whack!?! i think i'd want to prove my point, but then again, i might scare off any readers i have. i haven't had a haircut in over 2 months! which of course, anyone w/ long hair or a blunt ends haircut (like the regular bobs) would probably think i'm crazy for thinking this was a big deal. but really, my hair is still short (and originally a razor cut), even though i've been trying to grow it out since becoming pregnant. and it has, even though i've gone back a couple of times for maintenance trims. but really w/ short hair you gotta eventually trim some before it starts looking all mullet-y and out of conrol........... like i'm looking. ;)


i wonder if OBG "discharges" me off bedrest if i can go and get a quick trim. or maybe if i make it to being induced, i can go a couple of days before. yea!... that's what i'll do. in fact, i'm just going to ask OBG next week for permission. hee hee.


oh, and since shecyl asked for a bellyshot, i'm going to post it here. it was a week ago when i sat down in bed and noticed how much of my belly SITS on my legs! crazy!

34 weeks - how did we get here?

34w + 0d = sunday morning sleeping in w/ HunHun for a little bit. hanging out at home and had a DELICIOUS lunch of philly cheesesteak! Mmmm! hOops & yOyo are "doing the 2 step" as HunHun put it. haha. lots of moving and rolling today. my bones hurt. HunHun buys me "'Valomilk" chocolates after i absolutely had to have them when i saw them featured on the food network. these too, are super delicious!

34w + 1d = wake up @ 730 b/c i need HunHun to shave my legs so Dr.S - OBG won't get cut on my hairy legs all scratchy b/c i have to wait for it to be done for me. read some more of "belly laughs" i got yesterday - should be done tonight... appt went well. my fundal height is measuring "a little bit more" than last time (44cm) and i'm still at 1.5 cm dialated (blah!) and he can feel the "baby's head is really low".

34w + 2d = feel like a train hit me this morning. bad night. TRIED to make brocolli and cheese soup, and failed. i went over w/ the spices. lazied around most of the day. i keep feeling like the babies are trying to find a way out. sharp pinches in my cervix.

34w + 3d = found a twins baby book and teared up just reading the first couple of pages. haha. had BFF N come over w/ baby Zi for a midday visit. :) bad night again. woke up at 4am (of tmw) and as soon as i turned i felt a nosebleed coming on. trying to stop it woke me up too much and i stayed awake in bed for over an hour.

34w + 4d = thankfully got an extra 40 minutes of sleep this morning to make up for the 'nosebleed hour'. HunHun is away at naples (abt 2 - 2.5 hour drive away) for work. late in the afternoon i started getting contractions that were a little more intense than BH, they wrapped around my back and i was having AF-like cramps. took my pill and they calmed a bit, but still got woken up at least twice due to the ctx! i thought it was a full bladder, but was psyched out everytime i got up to pee.

34w + 5d = woke up w/ the same ctx as last night. took my pill first thing and got ready for the Peri appt. turned out to be "just" a biophysical u/s. so no growth details, just making sure that they have enough amnio fluid, good bloodflow in each cord and my placentas were doing ok. all checked out and i even saw yOyo practicing his breathing!! :) well, mid afternoon now, and still having ctx, they'e sporadic, not frequent enough to time i think. i ended up going to L&D - see post above.

34w + 6d = the terb shots worked it seems. haven't had strong ctx today. had visitors! V came w/ a box of clothes for me to go through, and she brought M and babyE. amazing seeing M being a mom and babyE growing so big and FAST! my sister and neices came by for a bit to pick up the 2nd stage car seats and some shelves. HunHun and i had our first in 2.5 months and probably our last for a long time diner date. we tried olive garden but the wait was too long so we went to longhorn and it was delicious! stopped by D & M's babyshower for a 5 minutes to drop off their gift.

33+5w growth scan

so on friday we had a growth scan and it went well! here are the stats.

hOops:

measures - 34+3

weighs - 4 lbs 14 oz!

heartrate - 140

rt kidney - 7 (6 @ last appt)

lft kidney - 6 (5 @ last appt)

yOyo:

measures - 33+3

weighs - 4 lbs 7oz!

heartrate - 150

rt kidney - 7 (5 @ last appt)

lft kidney - 6 (5 @ last appt)

we were suggested to have a renal ultrasoun before leaving the hospital after they are born, so the peds know if there is anything we need to continue monitoring. Dr.R Peri said he's "not losing sleep over this" b/c he thinks they're going to be fine at birth. even the though the measurements are going up, the babies are growing so it's expected. all in all, it was a great appointment. we only got 1 pic of yOyo so i'll share that. they are so big already that the tech can hardly get her measurements without running into multiple limbs, lol.

i also decided that since i've been horrible at keeping updates and notes of how it's been going (even in my own belly book!) i'll be posting a weekly post named for the week i am currently in. it'll get edited everyday and this way i can make other posts that may have to deal w/ something other than the pregnancy. i shouldve thought of this before..

ok.. here's yOyo.. i think he looks like me.. heehee.